18 Feb
My taxi driver has advised me to visit a lesser known Buddhist temple in Brickfields, Kuala Lumpur and so like a dutiful tourist I concede. It is quite empty and quite stunning. The large golden Buddah face is circled with a halo of colour. Her smile is so enchanting, so knowing and compassionate and joyful, that I feel a tear forming. I kneel in front for a good 15 minutes, enjoying the process of stopping, the momentary revelation that there really is nowhere to get to, even when you feel you haven’t got anywhere yet and you desperately need to.
Afterwards I head to the temple toilets to take a leak. Inside there a 4 urinals. On the far right of me is an old, bald Chinese man with a grin somewhere between lurid and unhinged. Immediately he hops over 2 urinals, mid-flow, right next to me, and literally stares directly at my cock. Not even the vaguest attempt to hide his interest. Proudly holding his own shrivelled cinnamon stick. I try to hover round sideways but am just jutting my ass out closer to him. I squeeze that pee out like a gall stone, turn on a 6 pence and leave. Most irritatingly I head the wrong way out the door into a dead end courtyard and have to double back. The grinning sex pest is waiting. As I approach he starts making a wanking sign and pointing to the toilets again. Ridiculously, I start grinning and just shoot by shaking my head at him. It is then that I notice his striking resemblance to Mr Miyagi and witness the death of yet another childhood fantasy. Honestly, language is a funny thing. I can’t even give a taxi driver directions over here but the wonders of international hand signs can allow an aged sex-pest to offer me a free wank. At least I hope it was free. But why oh why choose a temple toilet? I’ve heard the Buddhists are very accommodating, but really?
Outside I am glad that I am old enough to laugh and swear with incredulity and shake it all off my shoulders.
Temple 2 – back on the horse
I have signed up to visit another temple the next day, armed with a particularly feisty teacher friend of mine for protection. If I’m honest I’m not a very keen sightseer. It just doesn’t do much for me. Read this plaque, follow this exhibit map, repeat for hours bla bla bla; it all just makes me feel overwhelmed by a kind of cattle farm tedium. I do quite like temples though, just to sit and soak up the vibe and remind myself of all the ways in which my life is distinctly unspiritual and in which I wish it was different.
The Batu Caves in Kuala Lumpur are wide enough and high enough to house a whole galley of pirate ships. They soar about 150m upwards into stalactites that loom from the shadows and pierced eyelets to the sunshine above. The sheer sense of cavernous space is overpowering and oddly calming. The musty air rings with Hindu chanting. In contrast to Christianity, where one Church suffices, the Hindus have filled each corner of the cave with a separate temple, each with its own unique carved Gods and priests. The effigies are enchanting. Another comparison you notice with our crucifix is that Hindu images are almost always smiling. The message is not one of penance but celebration here. In addition there are significantly more women. Some of them are a shade of luminescent blue which gives them a kind of ethereal glow. I don’t know what they mean and have eschewed the audio book option, but I’m pretty sure they’re meant to give me the sense of calm I have now.
In one of the busier shrines a priest is trying to sell me a candle. Hard experience has made me unduly cynical of links between tourism and money, even when it comes to religion. But the Ghee filled shell candle looks intriguing and I feel like offering a prayer to the future. He asks for 1 Ringit. I give him 50, my only note, and he gives me 40 back. Bartering with a Hindu priest is a little embarrassing, but shame be damned he ain’t ripping me off that badly. I ask for another 5, which he concedes to before also giving me a plastic bottle of children’s milk called ‘Smoo’. Hhmmm. I move on round to the shrine and another priest asks me my name. My name is actually almost impossible for Malaysians to say so I settle for being Waywaw. He sings a maudlin chant, throwing flowers over the alter and filling a half coconut with fruit before laying it at their silver God’s feet. ‘Good luck for you’ he assures me afterwards, whilst proffering the donations tray again. I ignore this, grinning inanely. So he gets a black cord and ties it round my wrist, before anointing me with ash.
‘Good luck!’ he says again.
‘More Good luck?’ I ask.
‘Yes, all year!’ he grins, again hovering with the bowl. Well that’s got to be a bargain no? He’s won me over and another 5 Ringit come out, which he gracefully pretends not to notice as I drop it in the bowl. I leave feeling a little cheapened to be honest. In another temple there is a priest giving blessings to a waiting circle of devotees. I want to watch so I hover in the background, trying to respectfully not be a part of it. But when the priest is opposite me he beckons me forwards. The other worshippers grin and welcome me. I am again anointed amidst some resonant chanting. This time there is no donations bowl. The priest simply says ‘you are welcome.’ And so I suppose that’s how it goes; even amongst the religious men you have the chancers and the charitable shoulder to shoulder. On the way out there is an effigy that seems to sum it up. It’s a cow with large udders, the tail of a snake, woman’s breasts and the head of a moustached man, all topped off with bull horns. The sublime and the ridiculous.